Monthly Archives: June 2020

13 Reasons Why….

…we will we survive.

“A good friend once said to me: “I can love you and still let you go”. So, Hannah, I love you and I let you go. I miss you and I hope that wherever you go next, you feel peace, you feel safe, in a way that you never did here. Wherever you go next. I hope you know that I love you” – Clay Jensen, 13 Reasons Why

It all started with Hannah Baker, 7 Tapes with 13 Reasons Why she did what she did…and the rest spiralled out of control culminating in 4 seasons of highs and lows, social issues and heavy emotion.

This series is an emotional rollercoaster, the first season is the most intense and came at a time when depression and teenage suicide was rife in the world and still is to this day…..the issues depicted in all 4 seasons are real, it may be dramatically played out but they are real, teenagers and adults alike go through these struggles on a daily basis.

What I learnt from this show is that in the end love will conquer all, the love of those around you is what helps you through the worst of times……we may not feel it at that exact moment but if we choose to live, face the demons inside our minds and accept the love from those who truly care for us we can endure the worst storms.

The series opens up various issues that need to be openly spoken about, it can be used as an educational tool to help those in need……

1. You Are Worthy

2. You Are Strong

3. You Are Beautiful

4. You Are a Winner

5. You Are a Survivor

6. You Are Free

8. You Are a Winner

9. You Are Amazing

10. You Are Magical

11. You are Powerful

12. Your Life Matters


I write this post in a time when the world is changing, this virus has opened us up to ourselves…brought us into isolation opening up our minds, it has led us to face our fears and it is so easy to slip into a dark space without the things that we used to keep us safe…..change is difficult but with change comes a new understanding and there may even be a higher purpose for this change….so continue to show up and embrace the love that is found in each new day….WE WILL SURVIVE!!!!

” ….Choose to live. ‘Cause even on the worst day, there are people who love you. There’s new music waiting for you to hear, some… something you haven’t seen before that will blow your mind in the best way. Even on the worst day, life is a pretty spectacular thing.”- Clay Jensen Graduation Speech

Who Am I?

A journey of self-discovery….

A journey of self-discovery, a journey of knowledge, an adventure but most all an experience of sharing and bridging gaps between different cultures.

I am Shaun Engel from South Africa; I am currently in Kendari, South East Sulawesi Indonesia. I have come to Indonesia as a volunteer in partnership with my home Church – The Moravian Church of South Africa and the Evangelical Mission in Solidarity (EMS).

The purpose of my stay here in Indonesia is to share experiences as well as learn more about the different cultures Indonesia has to offer, the main activity in which I will partake during my 6 month stay will be to teach English at Oikumene School and at an Orphanage in Lambuya.

I arrived in Indonesia on the 1st September 2017 after months of preparation I have finally arrived, to be honest the nerves only set in during the last month before I was to leave South Africa for 6 months (the longest I’ve been out of my home country). This is a journey that I feel I need to take and after almost a month I feel I have made the right choice as me being here can and will have a positive impact on both myself and the community of Kendari.

Currently we are 6 volunteers spread across Indonesia as part of the EMS program, 5 from Germany and 1 from South Africa. After a brief introduction in Bali where we learnt about what to expect while living in Indonesia as well as Bahasa Indonesia lessons, we were off to our various destinations to begin what is sure to be a memorable experience for all.

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My first impressions of Kendari was that it definitely feels different to the hustle and bustle of Bali, less traffic, less tourists and also a similar sense of home even though I know there are differences.

I met my Mentor Mr Yakob Simpson and immediately felt at ease, he even invited me to call him brother that makes us family now. This sense of fellowship is expressed throughout Kendari as everyone that I have met thus far have been really friendly and accommodating. One week of orientation in Kendari where I stayed at the Synod Office of the Church of Gepsultra, here I learnt more about the Church structure as well as met with the Bishop Marthen Sambira where we finalized my schedule for the 6
months that I will be in Kendari.

As mentioned before my main task will be to teach English at Oikumene School, this is a new experience for me and one that I will take with both hands as an opportunity for growth. My initial experience is that the students are really excited to learn and are willing to engage in every activity given to them which makes my task a little easier. The challenge of coming up with exciting and innovative ways to teach is one that I will have to overcome.

My first month in Indonesia has been a mixed bag of emotions as well as gaining a few extra kilo’s but this is all because of the excellent hospitality received, I know there is a long way to go and many challenges to be faced but I have already overcome one and that is being here and enjoying each day.

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I am Shaun Engel from South Africa, ready to make a positive impact in the life of at least one person in
Kendari, Southeast Sulawesi.

Stay tuned for more as I document my experience…